literature

In Your Head

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“It’s just in your head,”
A friendly voice assures. The
Sound travels into my ear,
Pulsing past the
Eardrum and hammer,
Anvil and stirrup,
Reverberations tickling the hair cells
Of the spiraling cochlea, further arousing the
Twisting auditory nerves, then a
Thalamus and auditory cortex,
In my head.

A quick glance up reveals her
Bright smile and creased eyes,
Visage reflecting through my pupils,
Against my fovea,
Ganglions and bipolars,
Rods and cones,
Capturing the light, their
Synapses chemically catapulting it back through
Optic nerves to the
Ever-ready thalamus and occipital lobes,
In my head.

A wary hand stretches out to
Stroke my shoulder,
But I can’t tell if she paused before resting
Against my hunched trap,
Or if the soft touch is real,
My focus too focused, it seems.
Top-down, bottoms-up,
It’s hard to make sense
With the knowledge that it’s all
In my head.

My heart thumps a quickened beat,
Veins and muscles stressed against an onslaught of
Hemoglobin and hormones.
I label it panic,
As my throat tightens and
Abs compress against a roiling stomach.
Dull pain explodes and spreads nowhere and everywhere at once,
A flickering flame of doubt and fear
Clogging my sight and blurring my hearing.
It’s all
In my head.

“It’s not real,”
“It doesn’t matter,”
“Nothing will hurt you,”
“It’s all in your head,”
My brain assures itself.

the things I decide to do instead of continuing the 60+ pages of notes I need to take for my Psych test tomorrow/punches self

also, I only used thesaurus.com ONCE, so I'd count that as a success

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Sjach's avatar
This is fantastic. Very well written. Great job! :)